Wake Me Up When September Ends.....

...October also, and November also...

Hello Belog.

Lama aight menyepi. I had a beeerrrryyyyy long hibernation since to what has happened to me last August especially on my father's critical health condition that month. No mood of belogging and summore, kekangan tugas kat opis, pile of drawing to be completed for submission and of cos everytime nak kejar deadlines. Even my leave's pon dibekukan due to this current project.

Macam tu lah golongan marhaen macam ai yang makan gaji ngan orang. Hectic! and pathetic!
 
So sad; no Hari Raya stories for this year, no jalan-jalan stories, no makan-makan stories, no sakit-hati-makan-hati version-of-stories (Eh?), no more my Jasmin and Adam stories and milestones updates, tup tup dah cerita pasal yang coming soon baby pula. *wink*

Well, actually ada juga few updates, but that one just a very general one, something for my own motivation and reference masa depan anak-anak.

Okay, tiba-tiba dunno where to start first. Huuu...

Okay, hari ni or lebih precise lagi minggu ni agak bahagia sikit di office sebab manager and engineer masing-masing outstation. So dari Isnin ingat nak update entry tapi time was running fast on Monday. Reached office quite late that day sbb nak siapkan tuan puteri banyak perintah ke school holiday camp dia so by the time reached office kena update my list of things to do and borak-borak itu ini cerita pasal hal negara with office mate, dan tgk jam dah lunch time. Dan.............. tiba-tiba, masa dah time untuk balik. Cemburu betul masa dengan saya. :)

Semalam tried to start my entry but halfway berhenti sebab sibuk godek itu dan ini dan hari ni sambung lagi menulis.

Okay, itu cerita di office yang dah nak masuk setahun berkhidmat. Macam tu lah lebih kurang routine-nya hari-hari. Masa bergerak super-fast di sini. Tamo cerita hal kerja banyak-banyak, nanti cliche.

Alhamdulillah, things are getting better day by day. Owh, we have moved-in temporary to my sister's house since last September selepas kejadian "khianat mengkhianati" berlaku dalam kehidupan ai yang sangat epic untuk diceritakan bagi tahun 2012 ni.

Tak mengapalah, we both now kena redha dengan apa yang nak berlaku sekarang dan masa depan. Means that if ai still can tolerate with someone yang dah robek-robekkan hati kita, so u have to be vice versa lah. Me is very simple one; my deal is, take it or leave it.

Telan la mana yang mampu. Baaaaannyyaaakkkk hati "orang-orang tua" yang perlu dikisah-kasihkan. Dan anak-anak. Doa dan serah semuanya pada Tuhan. Sebab bagi saya sekarang, Tuhan itu perancang terbaik. Baik atau buruk semua ada hikmahnya.

Hokayyyy, itu je up close and personal dari hati saya. Nanti tulis berjela dah rope diari kehidupan pulak. Not every single thing, love and hate, hidup dan mati, dalam hidup kita ni nak di share dengan public. Tak perlu sangat!

Anyway, my heaven on earth dah 90% complete dan inshallah by January or early February next year akan dapat kunci.Yeay!

My Jasmin dah 4 tahun and she grown up to be such a cranky kakak nowadays. Sangat banyak ragam dan kerenahnya, memang sebakul! Abahnya memang tak kuasa nak melayan.

Saya masih ingat masa awal saya start belog ni, Jasmin baru 11 bulan. Banyak milestone dia yang dapat saya simpan dalam belog ni dari merangkak, bertatih dan berjalan. Semua ada.

Dan as up to date, macam-macam cerita sebenarnya kalau nak ikutkan pasal Jasmin ni. Mostly tentang aktiviti sekolah Jasmin, her fancy dress contest bergaya dengan kebaya nyonya, her school concert and her role play dalam short drama, her school graduation day dan dapat trophy best cheerfullness 2012 dalam class , perkembangan dalam pembelajaran dan of cos juga cerita Jasmin dengan adiknya, Adam. Eh tak lupa juga, the latest one, when she had her first hair cut at the saloon. Before this nenek yang potong rambut dia. Juga tak lupa tentang my upcoming baby, she requested a baby girl!

Nur Adriana Jasmin; 4 Strawberry, 2012

Adam Muhaimin, 2012

My Adam? Sebenarnya tak banyak cerita pasal Adam kat belog. Adam grown up very fast. He is 1.5 years old now. Cakap sepatah apa pun tak boleh tapi sangat faham bahasa. Masih dengan selimut busuknya. Hisap ibu jari tak tinggal. Anak omeh abah eeee. Tak geng ngan Ibu sangat sebab kakak always jealous everytime nak manja-manja ngan Adam.

Seingat ai, only ada few entries on Adam's milestone on the early months after deliver, at least ada la few entries tentang perkembangan dia. Dan gambar 1st birthday party Adam pun tak direkodkan. Haih la Adam. Nanti Ibu buat back-dated entry utk Adam okay. Poomiiissshhh! ;)

Annnnddddd not forgetting my new baby's updates. I'm currently 14weeks+ preggy. Ini tak dirancang. Semua tuhan yang bagi. Alhamdulillah. Apa yang Tuhan beri cepat atau lambat, banyak atau sedikit, saya bersyukur, dan mampu atau tak, itu ketentuan tuhan. Saya tak nak dianggap kufur nikmat kalau mengeluh dengan rezeki anak ni.

Alhamdulillah, rezeki juga makin murah. Urusan juga dipermudahkan.

Tapi yang menariknya, two weeks before i know i'm pregnant, ai sempat panjat Broga Hills. Terel!

Biasalah, kalau early pregnancy, segala perubahan hormon dalam badan buat diri jadi tak stabil, nausea, fatigue, drowsy, dan kali ni muntah-muntah almost everyday. Dalam kereta tengah drive pun boleh muntah. Sangat different compare to Jasmin and Adam. The sickness only come late evening dan bawa sampai ke malam. Lucky me morning no sickness so boleh bekerja with full of energy! Jyeah!

Anyway, hope baby's condition will be fine sampai deliver nanti. Ammiiiiinnn.

But most of all, perkara yang paling buat saya jatuh terduduk apabila saya berdepan dengan situasi yang saya hampir kehilangan bapa saya last August. Heart attacked dan tiba-tiba sesak nafas, terus masuk CCU unit, he's in very critical condition, 50-50 chances to survived, hanya 2% of pulse left and doctor had to sedatize him to stabilize him dan had to depends on the life support machine, wires was all over his body. and I even saw how the nurses and doctors tried to save him, macam nak end of the world rasanya. Sigh. Sangat dramatic. Only God knows how I felt that time.

Doa, redha dan tawakal. Anyway, he is okay now. Berrryyyy stubborn man. Masih sibuk buat lempeng pisang kelapa setiap pagi tanpa jemu. Haih. Now I know ai inherited this stubborn dari siapa.

Untuk itu, apa pun dalam hidup ni, ai have to bear always in mind, apa yang ada pada kita sekarang ni semua milik Allah SWT. Tiada apa yang milik kita selamanya. Semua milik mutlak Allah SWT.

"Hidup dan mati ketentuan Allah and I don't afraid of my faith" Kate;LBS2

I have reached my sky! - Broga Hill, 14Oct2012

Huuuuuu.....I am counting the days......

Okay, I am now on my last of trimester, final month of pregnancy, almost 36months and it's getting much more scarier compare to Jasmin last time.

Okay, im on leave today, resting at home, it was all because yesterday while i was on my retail teraphy for my baby stuff, suddenly perut cramp sgt-sgt. So today just lying on bed and doing some house chores and preparing my baby's room and washing some baby's cloth and starting Jasmin's toilet training (sigh! not exactly a rehat actually cos still need to do load of things before I start my two month maternity leave)


So far Alhamdulillah, Jasmin is doing fine for her toilet training and right now enjoying her time watching the BabyTV cartoons. Only one time je wee-wee kat dalam seluar tadi but second time she told that dia nak kencing and rushed ibu and jasmin to the toilet. I just let her pakai her seluar "katok" je for today so that hubs will not complain coz byk sgt baju yang nak di basuh (oh, he is such a great helper!) And just now just finish helping Jasmin wee-wee kat toilet, dah second time and she's doing fine! Hooray!

And back to my cramping perut which happened since yesterday, my mom ask me to see mak bidan so at least mak bidan boleh betulkan perut sikit-sikit. Actually nurse dah pesan hari tu, no mak bidan tapi I dah tahan sakit sangat, back pain, cramp perut, baby stretching and kicking macam terselit. Ohh, byknye ragam baby kali ni.

And actually my baby now is on breech, tranverse lie position. So the baby actually dah sengkak my tulang rusuk and when he kick my tulang rusuk, fuuuuhhhh, Tuhan je yang tahu sakitnya macam mana. I do feel sikit-sikit contraction macam dah nak bersalin tapi tak kuat sangat. Tapi the pain still buat I menderita..... Ouuchh!


My baby position right now buat I tak tentu arah, worry sgt-sgt cos takut I need to go for a c-sect. Oh, peliiisssss, minta jauhkan lah semua itu, let it be normal... I'm praying hard since last two weeks bila dapat tahu baby breech, tapi ketentuan Tuhan kita tak tahu...


Hope everything will be okay bila time dah sampai nanti. And hope the GH doc and nurses semuanya akan baik-baik treat me nanti. *wink*wink*


And now Jasmin knows how to love the new baby "Ally". She love the baby very much, every morning when we sampai nenek house, Jasmin will kiss the baby first. Such a caring kakak and so penyayang pulak, hope she can do the same to her new baby brother soon. Amin.




P.S. Selamat menempuh bulan Rejab, bulan yang penuh keberkatan.

Allah berfirman, ”Sesungguhnya bilangan bulan pada sisi Allah adalah dua belas bulan, dalam ketetapan Allah di waktu Dia menciptakan langit dan bumi, di antaranya empat bulan haram. Itulah agama yang lurus, maka janganlah kamu menganiaya diri kamu dalam bulan yang empat itu, dan perangilah kaum musyrikin itu semuanya sebagaimana merekapun memerangi kamu semuanya, dan ketahuilah bahwasanya Allah beserta orang-orang yang bertakwa.” (QS At-Taubah: 36)

Gulp! I'm on MY FINAL TRIMESTER!

Holla! Time flies super-fast!

Finally my baby have already reached 28 weeks means that I am a 7 month preggy mommy; 54kilos in weight with a cute lil' bump (my baby weighs a kilo now!)... heeee...

Sekarang ni appointment dengan doctor dah start dua minggu sekali, for both KPJ and KKIA. Anyway, I don't have problems for the appointment with Dr Ishak but what brings trouble for me now is my appointment with KKIA. Mereka nak jumpa weekdays and weekdays lah rasanya hari yang paling hectic dalam hidup saya. After two times skipped the appointment with KKIA, and last two days I went to see them as they have called me dengan "caring-nya" menyuruh saya attend the check up.

Ekceli I forgot that I have appointment with them on the 13th (sigh~ my third skipped appointment!) and in the evening the nurse call me ask me why I didn't come and yet lame statement from me "Sorry nurse, busy kerja lah!" I managed not to picked up their called for my last two appointment and surprisingly they called mr hubby darling. Thank God i've informed him earlier, if the nurse called, let them know that I'm in KL. *Pheew, what a long mumbling by Lily...

Okaylah, explanation on WHY I DON'T WANT to have my maternity check up at KKIA?

1. They are so-really-daaayymmm-caring-people (and i really mean it!)

2. The nurse always said that I am over weight and have to keep on dieting and i feel that it is so annoying. (Hellloooowww, I weight 46kilo aje sebelum ngandung and naik 9 kilos sekarang ni; i guest that's a good achievement by me on my effort to gain my weight)

3. They want me to eat the "cokolet" pills (iron pills) due to my low Hb problems; dua biji pagi dan dua biji malam.

4. I have to go for blood and urine test everytime i see them. Errghhh!

5. I have to do my MGTT (minum air gula) for the second time! Yullkkksss no way! (but I have to on the 20th ni!)

6. I have to take the ATT injection which i manage to cabot lari on my last check up (15th March) but just had the injection yesterday! Aoouucchh! Aooouuchh! x1000 (possibly i have to take it for the 2nd time but i'm not sure when, OH, NO WAY!)

7. I have to update my baby movement from 9am to 9pm and record them in my pink book. ( As far as I can remember, for Jasmin, i did it on my final month of pregnancy, memang susah nak disiplinkan diri utk ini sebab saya adalah seorang yang lemah daya ingatan, hadoih!)

Baiklah, cukup-cukup. Itu hanyalah satu luahan hati yang sebenarnya saya kena obey sampai saya deliver nanti.

Okaylah, ekceli, I am so in big WORRY now!
On my last check-up, so far Alhamdulillah, kepala baby dah ke bawah but doctor inform yang my position uri ke bawah sedikit. Saya blur sebenarmya bila doc kata uri "ke bawah sedikit", sebab last appointment with Dr Ishak, he said everything is fine (except that my baby is over weight sket; 1kilo, dan sepatutnya around 800gms ajer.)

And I've check on the net regarding this matter ( placenta preavia) and what i found opkos it will bring some complication masa deliver nanti. Komplikasi pendarahan juga boleh berlaku masa peringkat mengandung ni dan kelahiran pra-matang juga mungkin terjadi. Oleh itu, dinasihatkan supaya banyak berehat dan tidak mengangkat barang-barang yang berat (masalah bagi saya kerana, mendukung Jasmin apabila dia mengamuk adalah satu keperluan bagi Jasmin, dia takmo orang lain!)

FYI, tak ada siapa yang mampu nak pujuk budak banyak akal ni kalau dia dah terperuk kat bawah seat kereta melainkan ibunya yang terchenta sahaja!

Apa pon, ini adalah supply ubat dari KKIA yang perlu dimakan setiap hari due to my low Hb.... duuhhhh, baru makan dua biji.....

Tapi saya harap sangat yang uri saya tidak akan mengalami masalah apa-apa kelak. Doctor KKIA will conform back to me on my 32 weeks check up and I hope Dr Ishak will relieve me on my next appointment end of this month. Dijauhkan segala kesulitan dan dipermudahkan semua urusan.


P.S. If people think that I am wrong, let them be, everybody made a mistakes, and so do I, but I don't make mistakes TWICE!

"Curahkan semua yang merunsingkan fikiran anda itu ke atas kertas. Curahkan segala-galanya tanpa tertinggal satu pun. Kemudian bakar dan hanyutkan ke sungai. Terasa lega"

It wasn't so bad sangat......

Today is my second antenatal check up with KKIA. Since my first visit on the 13th Jan, the clinic still not disappoint me yet especially on the quality of services. Not so like others people keep complaining negatively regarding this and that but somehow i found it different way... but I know it's still too early to judge them as it was only my second visit and I'm not sure how it will take at the G.H. soon.....

I had to go to the clinic myself without Jasmin and hubby as I am so sangat serik to what has happened last time dengan Jasmin hari tu. So, this morning hubby has to sent Jasmin to nenek's house and then off to work.


Well, I had my appointment at 1000am and I reached the clinic around 0930am. As I am not sure how the numbering/ turn procedure is, I make myself to come early so that I won't get any kata-kata tak sedap dengar especially from the nurses. Anyway, everything's go with the flow and lucky me the clinic wasn't so packed with pregnant mothers and I have to wait for 10 peoples before my turn come up.

I take my seat near the doc's room and after few minutes waiting, one of the staff nurse called all the mother's who are still waiting for their number to come up to enter one of the room's for 15 minutes briefing on the "Breast Cancer".

"Bagosnya pulak diorang ni...."

So, orang memberi kita merasa, sambil mengisi masa lapang menunggu turn dipanggil, dengan senang dan rela hati, straight I went to the room. The staff nurse is very friendly and the briefing is very simple and compact indeed. Explaining to me on how to detect whether it was inside our body or not and how the breast cancer effect to all woman like me and aware me on how to prevent and doing the self-check (the PSP test). Sangaaaaattt berguna the info and again I tell you it's FOC okay!

This is my pink book provided by KKIA. All the details regarding my pregnancy akan disumbat semuanya di dalam cute pink book ini.

And this is the summary on my antenatal check up with Dr today... So my next appointment with Dr will be on the 14th April.

To be clear here, all the mother's will not get to see the KKIA doctor every month (but KPJ is defferent where we get to see our Gynea every month) and as for my  monthly check up, I akan berjumpa dengan Jururawat Masyarakat sahaja. As for my first time visit hari tu, the JM was quite friendly, helpful and tak adalah harsh sangat dengan kita. One of the JM assistant check my body top to toe and she also did the PSP test for me and showed me how to D-Y-I at home. However before this, I tak rasa semua ni pun masa kat my faveret Gynea.... heh! 

Hurm, tak nak trying to be bias sekarang ini so both option yang I ada sekarang ni pun ada good and worst-nya. And for me now and after, tepuklah dada tanyalah selera.    

P.S.

Berhati-hatilah dengan urusan dunia kerana halalnya dihisab, haramnya diazab.

What a preggy mom really need most in the early pregnancy

Perhatian untuk ibu-ibu yang nak mengandung, yang akan mengandung, yang sedang mengandung, here I share apa yang I telan to make my pregnancy and my baby healthy sokmo!

The most important is folic acid. Kalau ikutkan sebenarnya bukan setakat kena ambil masa kita tahu kita dah pregnant je tetapi boleh dah start makan bila kita planning nak conceive. Maknanya, makanlah seawal awak rasa awak nak merancang anak. Macam kes I, bagi ubat apa pun, memang payah nak habiskan, setakat ni doc dah supply kat I tiga papan (start masa 6 weeks ari tu) tapi setakat ni baru perabeh sepapan. Aiyok!

Folic Acid is very important in my early pregnancy

Okay, this pill memang first time I makan and wajib makan sebab I pernah miscarriage dulu. Memang important sangat-sangat sebab takut kejadian yang tidak diingini berlaku lagi. Ubat ni I makan memang disiplin. Tak boleh lupa, twice daily.

I require to take this pills sebab nak kuatkan rahim 

**kotak dah a bit jahanam hasil kerja penyelongkaran Jasmin mencari gula-gula

Al-Fatihah for my Angle baby.......

Dr Ishak also recommend me to take fish oil for food supplement as it is good for baby growth, especially on their brain development. Dulu masa pregnant Jasmin, I ambil fish oil on my last trimester but now I start consume this fish oil when I was 6 weeks pregnant. Dr murah hati nak bagi free so makan je lah. But my mom said, sometimes ada orang yang tak tahan dengan fish oil ni akan ada side effect macam cirit-birit. So far I okay je.... NeuroGain PB ni sesuwai untuk pregnant and breastfeeding mother. Boleh try kalau nak anak sihat, pintar, cergas dan cerdas. I punya testimonial u'ol boleh tengok Jasmin. heeeeee......

Fish Oil for Supplement

Other than that, what I need most right now are this gula-gula mint flavor daripada clorets! Dek sebab tekak sekarang ni rasa kembang semacam je especially after taking meals, so I akan makan clorets bagi segarkan tekak yang sentiasa kembang.

Benda ni memang wajib kena ada kat dalam handbag!

p.s. a total support from a person called "husband" is mostly needed! Thank you!

Yeay! Ta-ta 1st trimester......

Bila ada issue, baru tergerak hati nak post entry macam-macam. 

Tapi, bila tak ada issue rasanya elok duduk diam-diam.

(Dalam kepala otak dok sebok nyanyi .... boleh pandang-pandang, jangan peygang-peygang... kenapa entah!)

Dis week is my 12 weeks of pregnancy... means that i am now off the 1st trimester of preggy and now heading to my second trimester... The good news is; it is confirm (as on my second appointment with Dr Ishak on the 11th Dec), my due date will be on the 9th July 2011 which brings for me to think that why not I request from Dr Ishak to make me deliver on the 07.07.11. woot!woot! (awwww! my seven-eleven baby!)

Anyway, it's GOD's work! Anyhow, I am always praying hard for me to have a safe deliver without any complication! Amin......

Presenting my 10 weeks baby; Taraaaaaaaa.......

The baby's image tak berapa nak clear tapi jangan risau, as long the heart beat is fine, means that the baby is also fine. And two print out of baby's scanning image bukan nak tunjuk I ngandung twins but Dr Ishak yang bermurah hati nak print dua, satu untuk Ibu, satu untuk Jasmin. wink! wink!


So far, my body condition for these past few weeks was still weak! But absolutely different when first time ngandung Jasmin dulu, nausea and fatigue memang teruk. My so-called morning sickness on my first trimester is a disaster! Wuuuuu...


But for my second baby now, Alhamdulillah, the morning sickness tak attack terok-terok sangat but still ada sikit-sikit. Contohnya macam I tak boleh drive kereta with air cond so kena fresh air jer, and I feel shooo tired in the evening bila time balik kerja. Nowadays, usually I dah start tergolek atas katil around 9.00/9.30pm. And and and I feel very dizzy every each time everywhere I go. I have no problems with the smell of foods, my shampoo, my sabun, however BAWANG memang tak sedap untuk dibau buat masa-masa sekarang ni tapi masih boleh masak memasak lagi.


Nak cerita bab makan-makan, memang tak ada selera langsung nak makan nasik. Lagi suka makan benda-benda fast food and right now I am shooo craving for seafood. Huurrmmm bila lah nak dapat makan sotong goreng tepung ni. And also cempedak goreng.... Susahnya nak carik..... sob!sob!


Emotional feelings this time around memang ada up and down lah. Biasalah, preggy woman memang emotional terlebih but still under control. Diam lebih baik dari membebel-bebel tak tentu arah. I have to coz I've learned the lesson before this, so no more stress-stress. I have to enjoy more on my pregnancy time. Cheerio!


However, stress on my work memang tak boleh dielakkan. The project for Section 1A will be hand over by end of this month AND of coz lah STRESSSSSS, nak blog entry banyak-banyak pun tak ada masa cos kena focus kat drafting work. Takpe, berkhidmat untuk masyarakat so nanti ramai rakyat-rakyat kat area Senawang/Seremban Selatan/ Pinggiran Senawang dah boleh naik keretapi elektrik straight to KL, tak payah sesak-sesak kat station Seremban lagi. Ooopppss, tak boleh cerita lebih-lebih, P&C, nanti kena saman. Will update the opening ceremony of the Sg Gadut Station soon... tungguuuuu....


Apa pun, untuk tidak mengelakkan saya lupa tentang pengalaman mengandung anak kedua ni, dan kalau tak ada masa nak tulis blog entry, saya lengkapkan kehidupan saya dengan buku ni, lebih kurang macam diari mengandung lah. Sangat-sangat berguna, banyak useful info and tips dari penulis buku ni, siap ada resepi lepas pantang lagi..... Sangat compact dan boleh letak dalam handbag dan boleh bawa ke mana-mana.

Boleh didapati dimana-mana kedai buku berhampiran rumah anda. And I bought my copy from MPH bookstore.

p.s. Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: Doa seseorang itu akan dikabulkan selagi dia tidak terburu-buru menyebabkan dia berkata, aku berdoa tetapi tidak dimakbulkan. [Bukhari & Muslim]

How I wish......

.......but i failed!

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Hurmm.... my second baby should be in my arms anytime around this month! but sighhhhh..... 
and how i hope it would be on 10.10.10... hehe!

p.s. 
I still remember Dr Ishak told us last time, If myself trying to concieve again "....Lepas Raya bolehlah try....." hehe okay!