Surat untuk Babah - My Unsung Hero, C/Insp 13825 Abd Ghafar bin Hj Abdullah

Al-fatihah untuk arwah babah-ku yang dicintai..

juga untuk penumpang pesawat MH370.. 

 

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيم

الْحَمْدُ للّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ

الرَّحْمـنِ الرَّحِيمِ

مَالِكِ يَوْمِ الدِّينِ

إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ

اهدِنَــــا الصِّرَاطَ المُستَقِيمَ

صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنعَمتَ عَلَيهِمْ غَيرِ المَغضُوبِ عَلَيهِمْ وَلاَ الضَّالِّينَ

      

Maksudnya: 

Dengan menyebut nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang. 

Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan semesta alam. 

Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang. 

Yang menguasai di Hari Pembalasan 

Hanya Engkaulah yang kami sembah, dan hanya kepada Engkaulah kami meminta pertolongan. 

Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus, 

(yaitu) Jalan orang-orang yang telah Engkau beri ni'mat kepada mereka; bukan (jalan) mereka yang dimurkai dan bukan (pula jalan) mereka yang sesat. 

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Assalammualaikum wbt my dearest babah,

It takes me forever to finish this entry, 

it has been a sad month for me and also for the entire Malaysians.

After we lost you, Malaysians is deeply saddened by the news of mysteriously vanished of flight MH370.

I am totally in sorrow. Confius. What more.

DugaanMu, Ya Rabb.
Buat aku terfikir, Maha Agung kuasaMu.

Ketika Kau berikan aku kesedihan di atas pemergian babah, tapi Kau tunjukkan yang sebenarnya ada lagi yang lebih bersedih di atas erti sebuah kehilangan.

0130 am on 3rd of March 2014, you left us without saying any words or goodbye.

You left us at the age of 62 due to heart attack.

No words can describe the feelings. It was so heart breaking. 
It happened so fast. 
It hurts me more everytime I'm thinking of you.

Ya Rabb, kau limpahkan aku dengan rezeki yang melimpah ruah pada awal tahun ini tetapi Kau duga aku dengan Kau ambil nyawa orang yang satu satunya aku sayangi. 

Hebatnya perancangan Mu, tuhanku.

Saturday, 1st March, evening, mommy told me ur leg was swollened because you tried to clean ur feet with clorox. You said your feet was so dirty and that's why you soaked your feet until it started to cracked. Oh God, if only I know that was a sign from you.

And that evening was the last time I saw ur face.That's the first and the last time you saw Orked waved hand telling ta-ta to you.

If I know tis' would happened, and if I know tat' was your last goodbye, I would have kissed ur hand, hug you tighted and asked for your forgiveness dunia akhirat.

Babah, u r such a great father.
I remember Mak Mah told me when you were in Marine Mersing; how u turned back to Pulau Besar after reached Mersing jetty just to get back my selimut bushuukk.. Haha.

Oh my, tat' would be a big sacrifice u made for me.

I remember always the way you combed my loooooong kusut hair.
Made tocang for me.
Playing scrabbles.
Tought me how to read. Tought me how to spelled.

Rempit to teknik PD naik motor abang in the morning if i missed the bus to school.
Or you'll made a letter to my warden asrama so that I can be home every weekend.

Bought me a handphone.
The first handphone ever I got from him, Siemens brand, blue color.

The kancil.
The new rim sukan. 

You have given the world to me.
You have done everything to me.
But I don't have that time to repay it back.

Babah, u leave us so soon.
U said ur gonna live until you reach 90; same like arwah atok.
But u r not.

What about our planned.
The cadar, the handbag, the kain, the tudung....

And u didn't even test drive the car.
I was thinking of given it to u after i send it for 1000KM service.

And how about Ica,
how about us...
how about Alia...
and how about mommy....?

Mommy has been so strong since you left us.
No tears from her eyes but deep inside we know she's sad.
Alhamdulillah, she always besides you until your last breath.

As what I have written earlier in my previous entry on how I wish I can see my future, well I think I need to take my word back. No, I don't want to know.

Now u r safely return back to God. 
Syukur dapat solatkan babah dan sama-sama berdoa meng-amin-kan doa Imam untuk babah.

Your body were forever buried at Tanah Perkuburan Tuan Hj Ahmad Said Seremban and my pray for your serenity till eternity until we met again di Jannah, in sha allah.

Your soul will always be with us. No matter where we are, no matter what we do, In sha allah.

Babah, now I learn, like I will always told my friend to be strong and be redha dan pasrah for loosing their love ones and what God has decided for us, I am now telling the same thing to myself. Now I know I have to be strong too.

Even though I have Razi and the kids, of cos it won't be the same like having you in my 30 years of life. You have witnessing lots of things happened between me and Razi and not even a second you make me feel helpless. You'll always be there for me. Please pray for my happiness, Babah...

I know babah will always watching me from up above, and u'll be forever my guiding star, until one day, hopefully I'll join you up there, and live peacefully in Jannah. 

The last smile you gave to us was the beautiful smile I ever seen in my life. 

My prayer and thoughts will always be with you.

Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim,

Kau ampunkanlah segala dosa-dosa arwah bapaku.

Kau jauhkanlah arwah bapaku dari siksaan kubur.

Kau jauhkan arwah bapaku dari panasnya api neraka.

Kau kasihanilah arwah bapaku sebagaimana dia mengasihani aku semenjak aku dilahirkan.

Kau terimalah segala amalan kebaikan yang pernah arwah lakukan.

Kau tempatkanlah arwah bapaku di kalangan para solihin.

Aamiin...

Babah,
I love you to bits and pieces, 
to the moon and back.


Regards,
lily