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Seremban, Malaysia
A life I live is a story, what's done is done. Where it goes from here is totally up to me. I write my own ending.

Saturday, 29 August 2009

Thursday, 27 August 2009

On my fasting days...

The opportunity to post something here is absolutely takes me to squeeze my very limited time (means that I am a not-so-free working mom). At last I can seat down right in front of my office PC and jot down something which I am eagerly can’t wait to share with my readers (if there‘s one)

Of course I don’t ‘curi tulang’ at my office by the time I write these entry but somehow all my office works required me to used my physically stamina instead of my mentally approached (it’s Ramadhan you see!!!) So better for me to wrap myself into this ABC123 composition thing (blogging-lah!!) without my coffee besides me. I’m saving my energy until buka puasa.

Something to share; Besides blogging, on this fasting season, I filled my after-sahur-time with my so-so-not hobby which is reading. As I can remember the last book I have read is around three or four months ago; title Daddy by Dannielle Steel)

It is quite a long time I have stopped reading and I think I have to start reading again as Jasmin is learning now on her everyday life by watching, listening and talking etc means that she is imitating others right now. Plus I am so excited to see her ‘bertatih’ (walk) with one or two steps and hoping that she can be able to walk by this coming Hari Raya Aidilfitri (kita nak kutip duit raya ni Min, so you have to walk faster!! and some more, Abah promise to take us to Zoo Melaka and Genting Highland!!)

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih Episode 1 & 2– I am tempted to read these books since the film was on cinema last June in Indonesia. Lucky me, my Along was in Jakarta last two weeks and I ‘order’ the book through her. (Thanks Along and I owe her about Rph 60K for the sake of the book) I’m starting to fell in love with Habbiburrahman El Sherazy writing since the film of Ayat-Ayat Cinta (I don’t have the book coz I’ve watch the film two times and two times I cried and my hubby even want to produce a book called “Ayat-ayat Hidung” “….haha very funny of you(but it’s not)…”)

And right now, I’m still struggling (even forcing haha that's harsh) myself to read the book from the limited time I have and hope that I’ll finished it as soon as possible. Insyallah, I’ll post something on my comments after I finished reading the book. Let’s see whether the story is greater, devastated, more love, interesting or in synonims than “Ayat-ayat Cinta” by Pak Habbiburahman or “P/S: I love You (or in German P/S: Ich Liebe Dich) by Cecilia Ahern.

Till then…

Friday, 14 August 2009

Ramadhan Fever

I feel stress and a bit mind-numbing for these few weeks with lots of passing by and coming up events and soon ramadhan are just around the corner.

Before I precede furthermore, something that I just wanted to share is I am congratulating myself on my convocation ceremony which has been held on the 9th August 2009 at Shang Ri-La Hotel, Kuala Lumpur. I was graduated in Higher National Diploma in Civil Engineering Studies. Alhamdulillah..

**This picture is taken right after my convocation, my hubby and Jasmin is not allowed to enter the ballroom because of the H1N1. (Damn you H1N1!!)

Back to the story, I am not sure (what I am worried the most) is whether I can cope to wake up early in the morning and prepare for sahur for my hubby as last year I am spending my whole ramadhan at my mom-in-law house. Fortunately on last year ramadhan I was still in half of my pantang “session” and my duty of the month was a bit limited (although it was really a stressful 46 days).

Experiencing a ramadhan for the first time outside of my own parent’s territory ought me to make lots of sacrifices… Anyway, semoga ramadhan membawa keberkatan kepada kita semua. Amin. Welcome Ramadhan Al-Mubarak…

Celebrating ramadhan this year with the H1N1 pandemic (which fears the whole world) is absolutely will not going to be the same as the previous year’s of ramadhan. Until this time of my writing, it is reported that there are 51 deaths and about 1000++ cases all around Malaysia. This pandemic worries not only me but the whole planet earth!!!

When will all this be stop? Last week my hubby got a fever and has the symptoms of the influenza and I thank God because he was not infected with the mutation virus. It was only a normal flu. Two times of blood testing (from the KPJ and Klinik Kesihatan) seems like the results is negative. Syukur Alhamdulliah my hubby was okay and he was given the antibiotics and other medicine to cure all the symptoms he had likes cough, flu, fever and sore throat. However, I have to be more cautious towards myself and also Jasmin.

For another case, I went to HTTJ yesterday as my husband keep asking me to joint him visiting her nephew which is suspected with the H1N1. At first I was a bit worried (Oh God, please protect Jasmin) because I was about to see someone which is in an isolation term. After all, I’ve given a second thought and I went to see her with my mask protects all around my face. (Gosh, I do looks like a surgical doctor! Ha!!Ha!!)

The time I arrive, she was sleeping and the doctor has given her the antiviral. The feelings of sympathy is all around me when I look at her (deep inside my heart says; Oh God, once again I’m begging You please protect her and my Jasmin)My sis-in-law told me that her daughter will have some kind of delusional which brings her too see and hear things which normal people can’t. (Wew!!)
**So far, there were 7 other kids who are admitted in the wards for the same cases and I’m praying for them too.

As I was getting ready for my good night sleep last night and suddenly I was thinking about what kind of journey that I’m having through right now and for tomorrow? Am I going to have a good night sleep like this everyday? If today these pandemic has become a nightmare to others, I can’t imagine that someday it will be my nightmare too. Nauzubillahhiminzalik…

Wednesday, 12 August 2009


My life begins to be an interesting journey since I get married with Razi. At first, after delivering Jasmin in August ’08 I’ve decided to stay and rest fully at home raising Jasmin, seeing Jasmin as she is growing up in front of my fore eyes. Learn and spending most of the time on how to be a modest and humble housewife.

Four months staying at home being such a typical housewife and later I thought that housewife is not going to be my career for the rest of my life. I need something to fulfill my own satisfaction. Four months full of household duty and trying to be an obedient wife and loving mother is just one part of me. I need to find the other part of myself which have been left for so long. I have to find the missing pieces.

And now, I am who I am. I have my own world now. I create it to be look like perfect although it has the ups and down sometimes (well so far, most of the time). The flow of the phases has taught me on how to survive for life and never to give up, no matter how hard it is. Failure means worth rather than not trying at all. I’ve seen enough, I’ve experience a lot and I’ve walk a long distance to reach my goal. (Insyallah kalau panjang umur)

Jasmin has turned 1 year old on 7th August 2009. I never could believe that I own her as my daughter and I have made this far. With the support from the whole family (internal and external) I and my supportive caring loving hubby manage to raise her together. Given her the best love that we ever had, taking care of her, pampered her, spoil her with lots of toys, went for a window shopping together, taking her to hospital when she is sick, waking up late at night to feed her, read books for her, taking bath together (I even try to fit myself inside her bath up kahkah) drive to work together while we sing ‘twinkle twinkle little star’ (as loud as we can), letting her bite my fingers as I was trying to take out the pieces of paper and lots of fun and amazing things (pheeew)

So to my dearly Jasmin, one day if you has ever read and understands what Ibu have written here (soon when she’ll know how to read), I just want to let you know that Ibu & Abah will always love you forever and no matter what happen you will always be ours. You complete us.

HAPPY 1st Birthday Nur Adriana Jasmin ! ! !

"Ibu & Jasmin Standby nak potong Cake"


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