10th : HabluminAllah wa Habluminannas

Susahnya nak cari my first word dalam belog ni. It's like an annual report pulak since my last post was on November last year. And today ai comeback with my new write up and now it's already middle of December. How time flies and how time really taught me about life.

Life.

Yes, life.

The journey.

Lyraz is now 10th.

Siapa sangka, we have made this far.

Four kids has completed us. A family. 

Jasmin, Adam, Orked & Airis. Yang mana Allah amanahkan dan tanggungjawabkan hingga di Masyar kelak.

Our story is more too beautiful for me to share.

We have been riding the waves, walking on the sands and flying high to the highest sky that we could ever reach. So much of unforgettable moments for me to describe as ai feel that i am the luckiest woman on earth.

Aku tak harapkan untuk kau baca semua ini. Tapi aku tulis semua ini supaya suatu hari nanti, bila sudah tiada jalan for both of us, at least this will make you know how ai still make an effort to make everything good again. 

We have gone through with so many things we can't never predict; from the greatest happiness of our lives until to the betrayal and sadness and beyond it, and through thick and thin, high and low together dan apa sahaja. Sampai satu masa, i thought that nothing in these world could make us apart. Anyway, i'm wrong. 

Aku lupa dan aku leka, above of all, Allah itu yang nombor satu.

Allah boleh bagi bila-bila masa dan akan akan ambil bila-bila masa ikut kehendak Dia.

Aku tak pernah menyalahkan siapa-siapa dengan apa yang jadi pada diri aku atau sejahat mana pun kau sekarang. Apa juga yang aku hadap sekarang mungkin dari kesilapan dan kifarah dosa aku yang lalu dan ini juga adalah kehendah Allah. Sepahit ujian ini pastinya ada hikmah yang manis di hujung perjalanan aku. May Allah forgive all the evil hearts towards us. Buat atau cakaplah apa pun, i've seen all the dark side of them and ai ask Allah to give them more love so that it will heal their sick heart. 

Sept'23rd, 2017

Aku harap kau jumpa fitrah kau kembali. Kalaupun kau harap aku untuk tunggu kau kembali, aku tunggu. Walaubagaimana patah pun hatiku pada masa lalu, patah lagi hatiku untuk melihat anak-anak terus menjauhi aku di masa depanku.

Kalaupun tiada ruang untuk aku terus berada diantara kamu, jiwaku selalu berada di dalam hatimu, anak-anakku. Memerhati setiap gerakmu dari setiap arah tanpa kamu ketahui dan penyaksian ini antara yang akan aku abadikan untuk setiap ingatan memoriku. 

10th.
Sept'23rd, 2017.

No one is sent by accident to anyone. Qada' dan Qadar Allah itu jelas. Hubungan dengan Allah itu wujud. Hubungan sesama makhluk itu fitrah. Dua- dua kena jaga. Kalau lurus hubungan aku dengan Allah maka lurus juga hubungan aku dengan orang-orang yang aku sayang. 

Jalan takwa itu tidak semudah yang aku sangka. Aku tak maksum. Aku juga bukan malaikat. Istiqamah itu tak semudah ayat-ayat pakar-pakar motivasi yang aku selalu kongsikan di socmed aku setiap hari. 

Untuk aku imbas segala cerita indah antara aku dan kau, pastinya tidak akan cukup di ruang belog ini untuk aku luah. Dan ingatan pahit kita juga sama banyaknya untuk aku simpulkan.

Aku tak pasti apa yang kau cari lagi. Aku sudah puas mencari diri aku dan aku sudah pun dapat jawabnya. Tak perlu pandang jauh, semua ada di depan mata; anak-anak kita. 

Ai ask Allah everytime untuk keluarkan aku dari keserabutan ini. Allah tidak akan membebani aku dengan suatu ujian yang mana mungkin aku takkan kuat untuk mengharunginya . And ai believe as same as Nabi Yunus berdoa dan bertawakal, pergantungan kita pada Allah in sha allah will lead us to Jannah.

Everyone wants happy ending story and so do ai. Pray for us. 

Happy new year! 

Orked-ku Sakit

Assalammualaikum kiddos. 

Wattudu~~

Phew. What a long holiday. Ai just come back to work today after a long leave last week. 

Thank God my RM and Engineer outstesen ke JB hari ni. So let's beloging kejap cos ai don't have my own sweet time kat opis ni when they around. Of cos they don't mind pon but it's not good lah kot.

Orked sakit. Dah sebulan lebih sebenarnya. 

On off URTI. And due to that, the flu has infected her ears!

Kronologinya, last August, at first it started when we found out macam kudis api sekitar muka Orked. Keluar bintik berair merah gitu sekitar mata dan telinga.

And later she started to have fever.

And of cos diikuti dengan flu yang forever never stop.

Later the flu yang membawa ke demam berbalik-balik.

And now, the flu infected her ears.

Can you imagine how a mother would feel seeing her daughter hadap penyakit bertimpa-timpa macam ni.

You tell me, which mother yang nyenyak tidor malamnya bila anaknya sakit. It was a nightmare for me!

Yes, dugaan besar buat saya. Especially bila kena hadap macam-macam tanggapan semua orang yang dok sebok jadi tok hakim. Well, ai try not to blamed anyone cos every single matters that come to me is only because i am the one yang create it sendiri. Redha je lah.

Saya manusia biasa, not every responsible ai can handle myself but anyway Alhamdulillah, ai managed it wisely. Even what outside people nak kata, hey, this is my shoe, how can u fit ur feet in mine kan?

Anyway, Orked stays in nursery like 8 to 9 hours per day and of cos the baysitter akan look after her dari pagi sampai ke petang saya balik kerja. Ai put my 100% and extra 10% trust on my babysitter as ai don't have any other choices cos ai have to go to work to help my family financial.

No one understand us better except our own family. At this crucial time, ofkos ai need a support and usually ai referred directly to mommy. She have better experience. No doubt! Ai need mommy. I don't know what to do if she's not around.

From the private clinic and later on ai took her myself to KK Seremban pulak hope that goverment clinic can give some good medication and they gave her nebulizer and antibiotics and later gone back to the private clinic and last we went to the ENT clinic. 

Inilah dia, pengalaman membesarkan anak-anak. I can't imagine what happen if all my three kids jatuh sakit serentak. Rasanya ai'll take a year unpaid leave or maybe resign terus. Sigh~ huehuehue.
 

Alhamdulillah, this girl is getting better everyday!

At Dr Ch'ng ENT Clinic, Seremban

And yes, to release all the stress yang datang menimpa-nimpa lately, yesterday Razi took all of us for family outing. Orked haven't gone out since Monday last week except for her ENT checked up on Thursday. Ai preferred her to be stayed at home, well at least to made her feel better.

We went outing to the usual place. A good place to hang out with kiddos yesterday afternoon at Marrybrown Sendayan. Kids love going there cos ada playground yang not so crowded and ai also don't have to worry dengan safety mereka. Anyway, still trying my best to avoid the McD's for the kids as generally i am now practicing myself not to give them fast food anymore. In sha Allah.


And later to Mydin for some shopping and bowling. Yes, Bowling! First time for Adam & Orked but okaylah the place. Orang pon tak ramai. Senang handle anak-anak. Sadly no bowling pictures cos yesterday ai didn't bring my handbag and ai had to left my phone inside my car. Blergghh.

Anyway, it was a good quality time yesterday. There's always a good thing waiting at the end of the road, baik sangka aja lah. Good to see everyone and everything is back to normal again.

To made her feel happy and calm, ai had to change the carbonated drinks to mineral water. Pretending that she's having a Pepsi.

My super annoying adorable little rug-rats never failed to made me scream and shouting at all time. Hahahaha. So much story to share with u guys when u ols grown up nnt.

Ai choose to be happy!

Travelogue: National Elephant Conservation Centre, Kuala Gandah, Pahang

Throwback short trip cuti raya hari tu. 

A half day visit to the so called elephant orphanage sanctuary in Kuala Gandah, Lanchang, Pahang.

This is the place i kept on telling the kids and unfortunately ai have been keep on postponed it since early this year. Alhamdulillah, cuti hari raya yang ada hari tu saya gagahkan juga ke sana. 

 

 

Thanks to RM sebab recommend us to go there. A good place for the kids to get close with the natures and of cos they can watched and touched and even feed the elephants by their own.

No entrance fee required and it's open to public starts 10am until 4pm. 

 Before these there were few activities yang jabatan perhilitan anjurkan seperti elephant ride and bathing with the elephants. However recently they cancel those activities in order to relieve stress for the elephants in order to minimize the human contact with the elephants. Anyway, we still can watch the video documentary starts in the afternoon.

That day, we reached the sanctuary around 1030am and we left early and didn't wait for the vids activities cos everyone dah tak sabar nak check in di Janda Baik.

Of cos, this trip was an amazing experienced for the kids. It's good for the kids.

Kids really enjoy feeding the elephants especially when they touched the elephant trunk. You actually can feel the air from the elephant trunk sucking the food from our hand.

Jasmin wasn't really brave enough to hand feed the elephant. Adam is the champion as always, ultraman katenye... mana nak takot kaaaannnnnn~~ And Orked, she's still baby to understand everything but of cos she showed good response when she saw the big elephants.

 

Lets scroll down all of our pictures taken at the sanctuary.

Info bahasa: Gajah dalam pelbagai sebutan di seluruh dunia.

This girl was the happiest kid on earth that day!

This is the area where visitors can joined the bathing with the elephants activities. Now no more!

 THE ELEPHANTS!

Cute baby Dara the baby elephant.

Cant' remember tis guy name but he is cool!

There were five elephants there ready to be feed. You can buy the food from the nearby stall and feed them with bananas, peanuts and sugarcane with affordable price.

Budak paling tak takot! Eleh, baby elephant boleh lah.....

Takot tapi mahu.

My little ultraman on stembai mode in case the elephant nak sedut kepala abahnye~~~ Hadoi...... :)

And one pic of me; a moment not to be missed with the kiddos and the elephants.

Orked moment with the elephant. I can't let her walk by herself cos she would picked up everything she saw on her way and put everything inside her mouth.

And of cos the parent as always need a pic moment together but kena redha selalu sebab biasanya akan dipenuhi dengan photobomb anak-anak. Sigh***

READ MORE ABOUT THE SANCTUARY HERE.

Travelogue : De' River Resort, Janda Baik

This is our Hari Raya holidays short trip.

It was a last minute planned with Razi and yes it end up being a great trip for the kids.

We stayed one night in Janda Baik.

We booked De' River Resort a day before we checked in and lucky me it was not full as it was only a week after Hari Raya. 

The place was still in Hari Raya mood and most of the workers were still on holiday. So not much activities to do at the resort as usual days they have pool table, karaoke and a cafe.

If u Google about Janda baik, it was a small kampong situated in Bentong, Pahang. Approximately 30 minutes drive from Kuala Lumpur city and very near to Genting Highlands and Bukit Tinggi Resort. A peaceful village surrounded with untouchable natural tropical rain forest at altitude of 600–800 m above sea level. *wikipedia

It was our first time in Janda Baik. We were totally had no ideas how was the road and of cos ai need the google map to find the place. As we were travelling from Seremban, instead of heading to KL, Razi decided to take the Jelebu-Karak-Bentong route. 

We leaved our house around 730am and reached Karak around 10am. Seriously, all the way to Karak, the route was like, ular kena palu! 

Anyway it was an adventurous drive experienced as the road was very zigzaggy and some places were hilly areas. One time stop, as we all reached Jelebu, Orked started to vomit. Mabok naek keto gak ee!

Anyway, before we went to Janda Baik, we stopped by at Kuala Gandah. Took the kids to watched and feed the elephant at the National Elephant Conservation Centre. I'll update the stories later. :)

Finished with the elephants and deerlands, we headed to Janda Baik around noon and reached the resort around 2pm like dat.

De' River Resort located at the Kg Chendering, Janda Baik. From the Janda Baik entrance gate, drive straight about 15 minutes until you see the billboard of the resort and turn left. And again from the main road to the resort it will take 2minutes drives. You also can follow the signboard to the Insitut Latihan UMNO (ILMU) as it was situated nearby. That road also within another 4hrs drive will take u to the Gunung Nuang waterfalls.

Our crib for the night, Zuriati chalet on the ground floor on the left most.

De' River Resort is owned by a local people and the place was surrounding by the green landscape. The best thing about the chalet it is very near to the jeram (river). Bergolek aje dari pintu nak ke gigi air. Haha! few choices of accommodation provided here like dormitory and the wooden family chalet. 

Some of the wooden chalets.

Pics taken by Adam. The backyard view.

Affordable rate for a nite and they charge us RM130 only. But, please be notice that the chalet don't have TV and no aircond and no heater. Who need all those kan if we all come here to enjoy the natures and spend all the times we had there with the family. 

At nite you won't heard anything except for the river flows and the crickets. So soothing and calm and very relaxing. No mosquitoes at all but no worries cos they still provide us the ubat nyamok. 

So at night we just had our dinner at the verandah dan pasang sekali ubat nyamuk. The smell, the feel, terasa macam di kampung duduk di beranda rumah sambil minum kopi cicah biskut cap azan dan layan dengar air jeram mengalir. Nyaman!

 And of cos, the main activity to do in Janda Baik is mandi jeram. Lay down your body inside the cool water that made you feel fresh. And even Orked likes the water very much. Dia mandi sampai lebam biru mulut tapi tak nangis nak mintak naik. But Adam doesn't like the water very much as he will sit on the stone and rendam kaki aja. So cheating tis boy!

Tis cheating boy would preferred to be inside the tent while all of us were enjoying the air jeram! Ngahahahaha!

Oh, if the muslims women yang tak selesa untuk berendam di jeram, you still can enjoy the cool water in the bathroom inside the chalet. The river water is directly pump to the chalet and you can enjoy the water without being worried about your aurat.

But please remember, it is not advise for us to use the water for drinking and you have to bring you own tap or mineral water especially for the kids to drink and making milks. Don't forget to ask for the kettle at the reception once you check in.
 

 

To killed the time that nite so that kiddos won't feel bored and to avoid them from asking the phone lah, PSP lah, cartoons lah, Ultraman lah so we did barbeque.

The resort did provide the pit but we all sophisticated parent ni dah planned all the stuffed needed earlier. We brought our own pit and charcoal and ai even prepared the marinated chicken on the nite before and also brought some prawns and nasi himpt. Enough to feed all of us for dinner.

Don't worry, Orked won't jumped on the fire.

*silau*

In the morning, as the resort cafe still closed due to Hari Raya, we have to bought our breakfast outside from the local orang kampong stall. Recommended to have the pulut and kelapa manis once you were in Janda Baik. Taste so good. Other than that, nasi lemak is one of the must have menu for breakfast and easily can be found there and shoooooo cheap. Rasa? so-so aje lah~~

Pulut dan kelapa manis

The RM2.50 nasi lemak ayam sambal :)

Jasmin was the happy one with this trip. Dia mandi jeram started we checked in sampai nak gelap. And in the morning, what made me feel awkward bila dia mintak nak mandi jeram pukul 8 pagi. Seriuosly i don't understand her cos kalau kat rumah nak pergi school siap sedia air panas bagai nak mandi. Macam-macam!

Rasanya, this was the first time my kids bercuti kat dalam hutan. Before tis they all tau laut aja. But tis time lain sikit, experienced sendiri percutian dalam suasana kampung. Ada kucing, ada ayam, ada burung, ada musang king, ada ulat gonggok, ada pokok hijau, ada bunga hutan dan macam-macam lagi. Dan Razi sangat teruja tunjuk kat anak-anak dengan pokok mengkuang. Dia kata susah dah nak nampak pokok tu sekarang ni. Even it was my first time also saw the big mengkuang trees depan rumah orang pulak tu. 0.0

This trip also brought the memories of me and mommy masa childhood dulu. Once a month, lebih kurang, mommy, myself and my sisters mesti akan ke Templer Park. 

Naik bas turun bas dari Brickfields ke Bus Stand Klang lepas tu tunggu pulak bas nak ke Rawang. Menapak pulak naik ke atas bukit carik port waterfall paling cantik dan best untuk makan mihun dan urut badan dengan air terjun yang bersih dan sejuk tuhan aja yang tahu. Ai missed the moments. Sangat!

Fresh view of the stream and the greenery landscapes

View from the chalet. The reception is on the other side of the jeram. There also you will find a big pool pumped from the air jeram.

To be concluded here, if you are not a kind of fussy mommy who doesn't like to  pampered your kids with 5 star hotels, this is a great choice for your kids to be close to natures. Not just learn but also appreciate and love the natures surrounding them. And also a budget trip for family who wants to take their kids for a holiday our an outing. 

Syawal; 1435Hijrah

Wishing all my belog reader Happy Eid Mubarak.

Ampun dan Maaf jika ada terkasar bahasa terguris hati tersentap jiwa sepanjang penulisan saya selama ini....

Salam Ramadhan 1435Hijrah

Selamat menyambut ibadah puasa untuk semua pembaca belog saya.

First Ramadhan without babah. Sobs.
Sukar.
Tapi ini realitinya.

Alhamdulillah.
Masih ada suami anak anak dan close relatives untuk memeriahkan bulan mulia ni.

First year juga untuk Jasmin practice berpuasa. She's the one yang tak sabar sebenarnya nak berpuasa and keep on asking me question bila nak puasa sejak dr minggu lepas.

And for Adam, when ai ask him to puasa, he replied me;

'Adam e-mam'

Saba je lah.

Annnnndddd what good about Ramadhan tis year is, Orked dah boleh berjalaaannnn. 😍😍😍

And for me, trying not to membazar so much tis year. Haha. Mimpi.com je lah.

Happy 3rd Birthday, Adam Muhaimin

Alhamdulillah.
Adam is 3 years old today.

Just a simple celebration with his kindy friends and teachers today.

Dear my boy,
please dont grow up too fast.
Anyway, Adam, u r my baby forever.
Petite n nakal.

Wish u all the best, Adam.
Jadi anak yg soleh dan baik hati,
dilindungi dan dirahmati Allah selalu,
Dengar cakap abah dan ibu selalu
dan....
Next month kita start potty training secara exclusive hokkayyy :)

My Weekend dengan anak-anak saya

Lama rasanya tak ada hapdet tentang anak-anak dalam taman bunga saya ni.

Yang sulung, Jasmin, yang tengah Adam dan yang bungsu Orked; thousands of perangai, thousands of kehendak, thousands of cerita, terlalu banyak sebenarnya untuk di kongsi tentang grown up process mereka.

Usually our weekend tak kan end up dengan benda yang sama. 

Sometimes ke rumah nenek di Rasah, sometimes ke rumah atok dan wan di Rombau, sometimes spent our times pergi sight seeing, short vacay, visit relatives and sometimes we just be at home and enjoying every moment bergomol bergumpal bersama. 

Having three of them at home is a "party"!!!

 

My beautiful Sunday

A quick update before im off to bed. 

My weekend is passing by super fast this week.

I had a wonderful Saturday and a lovely Sunday with the family.

Yesterday, it was my family gathering and of cos G's family is expecting a new member in the house soon. In sha allah, minta tuhan restu dan permudahkan urusan kami semua.

And today, i had a lovely sunday with the in laws in PD.

Went over to my SIL house for lunch and of cos ai had her best tea tarik for tea time.

And before we went back to Seremban,

kiddos wanted to stop over to the beach playing with the sand.

Capturing every moment on spending our quality time with the kids. 

My Orked Adelia. Happy baby!

The love of a father

Adam was so afraid of the water. Can't help it!

Thanks to my girl Jasmin for capturing tis' family moment. No picture of her today cos she was so busy playing with the sands!

Pesan Ibu #15 Surah Al Kautsar

1. Sesungguhnya Kami telah memberikan kepadamu sebuah sungai di syurga.

2. Maka dirikanlah solat kerana Tuhanmu dan berkorbanlah.

3. Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang membenci kamu dialah yang terputus.

7 RAHSIA DISEBALIK QS AL-KAUTSAR

Surah ini adalah surah yang paling pendek dalam Al Qur'an, hanya mengandungi 3 ayat dan diturunkan di Makkah dan berasal dari sungai di Syurga. 

Kolam sungai ini diperbuat dari pada
batu permata yang indah dan cantik.

Rasanya lebih manis daripada madu, warnanya pula lebih putih daripada susu dan lebih wangi daripada kasturi.

Surah ini disifatkan sebagai surah penghibur hati Nabi Muhammad SAW, kerana diturunkan ketika baginda bersedih atas kematian 2 orang yang dikasihinya, iaitu anak lelakinya Ibrahim dan bapa saudaranya Abu Thalib.

Pelbagai khasiat terkandung di dalam surah ini dan boleh kita amalkan, diantaranya ialah :

1. Ketika hujan, bacalah surah ini dan berdoa. Insya Allah, doa kita dikabulkan oleh Allah SWT.

2. Ketika kita kehausan dan tiada air, bacalah surah ini dan gosok di leher. In sha Allah hilangkan rasa dahaga.

3. Ketika kita sering sakit mata, seperti berair, gatal, bengkak. Sapukan air tawar yang sudah dibacakan surah ini sebanyak 10x pada mata.

4. Ketika rumah dipercayai terkena sihir, bacalah surah ini 10x. In sha Allah, Allah SWT memberi ilham kepada kita dimana letaknya sihir itu.

5. Jika kita membaca surah ini 1000x. In sha Allah rezeki kita akan bertambah.

6. Jika kita rajin membaca surah ini. In sha Allah hati kita akan menjadi lembut dan khusyuk ketika menunaikan solat.

7. Jika ada orang teraniaya dan terpenjara, bacalah surah ini sebanyak 71x. In sha Allah, Allah SWT akan memberikan bantuan kepadanya kerana dia tidak bersalah tetapi dizalimi.

Jazzakallahu khairan khatira

Jasmin and Adam; First Day of School

Assalammualaikum Kiddos, 

Tadika Tunas Ilmiah, Tmn Nusa Intan, Senawang

Today is the first day of school for both my kiddos; Jasmin and Adam.

Tis year, ai enroll them to the nearest kindy, Tadika Tunas Ilmiah at Taman Nusa Intan, Senawang. Only few steps away from my house. Senang nak hantar, senang nak ambik.

My happy smiling little girl is going to school today!

Alhamdulillah, Jasmin has no problem at all nak bersiap pagi ni ke sekolah. Tis year she is attending the 6 years old class and supposely she have no problem at all on the fisrt day of school sebab literally she already undergo kindy since she was 4 years old. Enjoy ur last year in kindy my girl cos next year u'll be in Standard One!

Getting ready to school. Adam not wearing his uniform today cos dia cakap besar. Betuah punya anak!

Cerita Adam?
 Hahaha-haru! 
Tis year ai enroll Adam to playgroup. Altho' baru 3 years old tapi ai want him to be independent. Ai know it's too early for him, but Adam has learn lot of things from his sister and dats make him nak try dan ikot apa yang Jasmin buat. 

Summore, to develope his inner skills like confidency level and self esteem, so ai enroll him tis year, eventho' he still pakai diapers but the good thing is they will teach Adam toilet training. So, my expectation is that Adam can fully use the toilet for wee-wee and ook-ook by middle of tis year. In Sha Allah.

Anak-anak Abah. Itu Abah, ini Abah, semua Abah.

Anyway, here are some pictures ai took from their teacher's facebook. Today is more like orientation session for the kids and hope they enjoy the session for the rest of the day.

Nampaknya Adam masih berkepit dengan teacher dia! It's good to see the kindy provide a welcome cake on the first day of school for the children and the hat look's cute! Macam ada party pulak. :)

Shooo cute cat. Hope Adam boleh get along with each other soon. But ai wonder y baju dia dah tukar awal. Huehuehue.

Haha! No more Darius, now she have Umar as her new friend.

Selamat bersekolah, anak-anakku.

Ya Rabb,
jadikan anak-anak kami,
Cerdik akalnya, cerdas fizikalnya, terpelihara akhlaknya dan mampu jadi anak-anak soleh dan solehah jadi kebanggaan kita semua dunia dan akhirat. 

Aamiin.